[FAWM-Blog 2016] Leap Year

This year I completely failed at February Album Writing Month. The goal is to write 14 new songs in 28 days and I only finished 4. In the past I’ve blogged about this challenge and I’ve enjoyed most aspects of the process (2011)(2012). It’s a tough but rewarding month.

I don’t know where exactly I went wrong this time around. I’ve never had issues like this in the past. I took the first day off work, I made time, I had the home recording studio set up, and yet I failed. Motivation probably had a lot to do with it. We haven’t been playing many shows lately, so my desire to try new material has waned. Also, I haven’t really learned many new techniques or scales or playing styles or instruments, so I’ve been stuck doing the same few guitar tricks for the past several years and feel a bit bored, like I’m just repeating myself. Another thing is that I bought a new guitar on sale at the end of January that I was really excited about trying and writing with. It just didn’t live up to my expectations and wasn’t great, so I returned it. That really slowed me down and was somewhat depressing.

Creating isn’t about perfection, it’s about the process.

Hopefully in 2017 I force myself to just sit and finish each song, regardless of how bad or weird each one seems at first. I also miss collaborating.

Better luck next year, I guess. Hopefully future Michael reads this and gets motivated and doesn’t fall into the same rut.

Dimes

6:30am. Wawa. I refuel my car and walk inside to get some coffee. I say hi to the employees that I recognize. I mix some mocha wakeup poison caffeine powder into my 20 oz. Columbian and walk up to an empty line. I get a new cashier that I haven’t seen before. The customer in the next line over brought her coffee and pastry up to the exhausted cashier. She paid cash and asked for dimes for her change. Eight dimes. Unprompted, she explained to the cashier that they weigh less than other coins and that she collects them. She has a lot of dimes saved up and can easily bring $20-30 in change with her in her purse because dimes are so lightweight.

Everybody is weird. Everybody is unique. Everybody is beautiful in their own ways. Life is weird.

dogs.

2014-05-17 Nadia with 35mm lens 14

I never had a dog growing up. We had a cat. Her name was Tigger because she jumped a lot when she was a kitten. She kept to herself and was cute and furry and wonderful.

When Erin and I started living together, Nadia moved in with us. She changed my life. Dogs are the best thing that has ever happened to humans. I don’t think that you can understand that until you have a dog living with you. A dog that follows you around and barks at strangers and that whines to be let out and waits to be fed and cuddles you in bed. Dogs are awesome. This picture is from a year ago and I took it with a new 50mm lens and I didn’t edit it and it makes me happy.

finishing

I have trouble finishing things.

I’m fine doing the work to record or to film something or to compile data or to buy supplies, but when it comes to rendering actual results and output, I really struggle. I think that part of me wants my work to be perfect and another part of me is just putting everything off to wait for the magical day when I’ll have 8 hours free to fully commit to everything. That will never happen.

This blog has not been updated for 23 months now. I have probably 25 or so draft posts that I have not finished writing and have not yet published. I have 1600 YouTube videos on my Watch Later playlist. I have over two years of concert footage backlog for my local shows YouTube channel. I have thousands of photos that nobody else has ever seen because I have only been capturing content, not releasing it. This needs to change.

In July, I will attempt to post new content here every day. Whether it be a blog post, a new song I’ve written, photos or videos from shows, or other things that I want to share. I’m committing to publishing something at least once a day.

This will be the month in which I begin to get things done. I’m helping Erin plan our wedding and working full time and playing shows and dealing with health issues, but I need to push myself to go beyond the bare minimum. I need to create and feel and live again.

Wish me luck.


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